A little time to find some peace of mind

These songs by Her Space Holiday never fail to depress me.
But listening to them does make me happy.

I used to know this girl
Who gave her love away
To every guy she met
With all those games they played
She never seemed to cry
She never got upset
And one by one they came
And one by one they left

I thought that I could fix her
If she would let me in
But all of my advances
Were shut down in the end
When days turned into months
I begged her to explain
And this is what she sang

It's not like I'm a slut
Or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see
To walk away with part of me

Until there's nothing left to hold
Until there's nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

I used to know this boy
Who took notes in a book
But he ripped out all the pages
Before I got a look
At all the words he scribbled
At all the lines he filled
But the ink stains on his fingers
Told me he was skilled

At capturing a feeling
That most of us just miss
The simple pain of living
With goodbyes on our lips
I found one of the pages
Crumpled by her bed
And this is how it read

It's not like I am weak
Or that I don't know how to leave
It's just that every time you cheat
You bring me closer to defeat

Until there's nothing left to love
Until there's nothing left to say
I know that you need help
But even I can't save you from yourself



Her Space Holiday | Japanese Gum


I really can't explain how confusing it is to me, to want to listen to a song that makes me so depressed, because somehow, in a way, it makes me happy too.

Some things define themselves in contradictory ways. Like how being alone with someone can give you the loneliest moments of your life.

I'm picking up the phone and putting down this pen
To let you know I'm writing you again
But it's not the same the names have all changed
And my best friend and ex girlfriend aren't to blame
I did this myself it's a sick cry for help
But it doesn't mean the situation's clean
Additional stress that will come from the press
The mess I made putting my life on parade
Now the writers can say "we were right all along
You can't make someone love you with a song"

And you don't know me
But you owe me
A little time to find some peace of mind
And when you hold me
I'm not so lonely
It will be difficult to leave this life behind

My sister always said that hardships come in two's
A funeral and break up afternoon
There is really no good time for anyone to leave
In a couple weeks I'll get my chance to grieve
And hopefully by then my mind will be all clear
And I can cry for the reasons that I'm there
And not for all the things that are happening at home
The church was filled but I was still alone
But this is not a ploy to gain some sympathy
I made this bed and now it's time to sleep

And you don't know me
But you owe me
A little time to find some peace of mind
And when you hold me
I'm not so lonely
It will be difficult to leave this life behind

It's such a shame that the blame has somehow shifted to you
We're both aware through the years that I've been messed up too
And I shouldn't talk I should stop I'm digging deeper holes
It just feels strange that I sing songs for another girl

And you don't know me
But you owe me
And when you hold me
I'm not so lonely

Her Space Holiday | My Girlfriend's Boyfriend